I hope everyone had a happy, healthy, loving and lovely Thanksgiving. We did. Breakfast with Prestons parents, siblings and their cute kids and dinner with my mothers extended family. Technically, this was our 'first married Thanksgiving' (we were eating tacos and honeymoonin' in Mexico last year), and it was what I consider, perfect.
ON_THE_BRAINThis past week, a couple things have been circulating in my mind, non-stop.
A) Technology, technology, technology.
I realize I am not the first to make the connection, or admit to the fact that technology is addicting, that at times, I literally feel addicted to my phone. I am embarrassed to think of how many times a day I check social media. I am embarrassed to think of how many seconds, minutes, hours of my time is wasted this way. Don't you dare get me wrong, I love the Insta, and I love browsing Pinterest, and I don't think either are the bad guys here. With my time spent wisely I feel content seeing the beautiful/funny/interesting/cute/thoughtful photos posted by friends, family and unique vendors that I follow. I feel equally content pinning clever/pretty/food-related/crafty/helpful pins for now or later.
I am not a hater of social network, it can be used in the best of ways.
I guess what part A is getting at is that I want to find the right balance with technology. I want to be more PRESENT when with friends, family, and especially with my husband. Heck, even myself! There is just too much importance in physical, real life, here and now conversations, mediation or just plain taking-it-all-in.
In that same token I am happy to have the technology to keep in touch with loved ones and acquaintances. I am happy to have imdb.com so Preston and I can learn everything we can about the movie/show we are watching/finished. I am happy the church has utilized technology in a way that allows us gospel information at our finger tips (so awesome now that I have a calling, I can have my primary lesson book right on my phone, whata-what). I am happy to have a 'insta-life-tracker' that I can look back on on what I felt was 'important' enough to share (sometimes important translates to 'I'm bored, I wonder how many likes this will get' - am I the only one who has done that? A little embarrassing but it feels good to get it out). But really, I do like 'stalking' my own feed every now and then to see what mine and Preston's life in pictures looks like.
Technology is good, at the right time, in the right place. Moderation. Moderation in all things.
This one.. This one has been haunting me.. I feel like I have been fighting the 'I want, I want, I want' bug for days now and it. is. hard! It is hard because I finally realized how much I don't like this unhappy, ungrateful person the 'I want' persistency had created.
I look around at the cute little house my grandparents are renting to us, that they have put lots of work and concern into to ensure our comfort. I see my handsome husband, he's making me my favorite green smoothie in our perfectly good blender before we hit yoga class at the gym that we have monthly passes to (that Preston frequents and I should frequent more). I see this little life we have together, pictures, books, open and unorganized drawers of clothes, shoes strewn about, my little plants on the windowsill, our warm jackets and good snow boots, our cars getting covered with snow outside.. I have so much. I, HAVE SO MUCH! Yet, why, oh why do I let myself feel like I am missing out on something? Why do I need new this, or a new that, and more of this, and a new pair of those, when I already have all those things, when I already have more than I need?
I am definitely not against getting something new. I have really appreciated the times I have planned out, worked hard and budgeted for the things that I want. What has freaked me out is when I realized this problem and that with it my 'want' list was growing, while my 'thankful' list was beginning to shrink.. and that is just no way to live!
Guess what. Very shortly after I pin-pointed this 'want, want, want' issue, a quote came up on my insta feed (see, technology/social media can be so great after all ):
"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you do not have.
Remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for."
Maybe the holidays and being with family and friends a lot more has sparked this need for change within myself. I hope to focus more on 'being present' and more on giving and gratitude.
To finish off, with a slightly unrelated note..
One positive thing I have been more mindful about lately is that of my health. This week I have been enjoying some stinkin' awesome yoga (I will talk about that more later) and getting re-motivated to focus on eating clean.
A sweet family friend of ours, Carina, lent us a bounteous stack of cook books a month or so ago (a month?! they are currently sitting in my car waiting to be returned - whoops!) with this common 'clean eats' theme. Many of them being vegetarian/vegan. I have looked/read through them all a couple times and I think my favorite book was one by Gweneth Paltrow called It's All Good (which isn't vegetarian, but it's full of clean-eats and gluten-free).
This same friend, (she knows how interested Preston and I are into health) recommended we watch a couple documentaries, one being Forks Over Knives (guys, it's on netflix)! The premise, a look at America and it's food history, eating habits, and what the cause of all these crazy health conditions our country has been facing could be - the two major concerns being animal consumption and processed foods.
I found it seriously, so interesting!
I really liked this counter-comparison of eating clean/vegetarian/vegan to how many Americans get gastric bypasses every year:
I don't know that I will be completely eliminating meat or animal by-products from my diet (I already naturally limit them anyway), but I have definitely been re-motivated to research and know my foods better - get them from a sustainable, clean source and to enjoy more plants based foods and stay away from ominous processed foods."Despite the apparent success of th[is] dietary approach, some critics say eating this way is extreme.Now, with the western diet, this guarantees there's going to be what, a half a million people in this country this year who will have to have the front half of their body divided, their heart exposed, then veins will be taken from their leg and sewn on their heart. Some people would call that extreme." -Forks over Knives
If you are still with me, I seriously applaud you. It's been one great spew of self improvements, gratitude with a little bit o' health soapboxing if you ask me!
So there you have it! Life is about making changes for the better and doing/learning/enjoying what you love.
ps. Please do share if you have any advice for problems A-B or comments/quesions/recommendations about 'C' - I hear The China Study is another great source for this information, have you read it?